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Friday, July 13, 2012
说不出口的话~ Have this sudden urge to blog now. Obviously i feeling rather down.. CO is only my partial reason Lots of stuff is going through my head everyday god knows what i'm thinking every single second and i'm so pro at side-tracking now sometimes my thoughts just wander off during lecture but when i pull myself back, i still know what was going on.. I actually don't fall asleep during lecture or rather during my lessons although i might be tired, but i hardly lie my head on the table. I guess too much things have been happening recently some i'm not even involved. Lols! I don't know how to explain but there's this hidden force pushing me through everyday i don't really dread for school now cause i kinda found my manual to scrape through JC life everyday~ cannot say manual to success, not that pro yet. My results(so far) is not very horrible but not as fantastic average only? sometimes i don't really feel like explaining and explaining is tiring, 有些事情, 越描越黑, 我现在都是一笑置之~ Sometimes i really find that only when i talk to S, or whatsapp group with sec sch friends 我才找回真正的自己~ Or maybe alittle during train ride after practice with CO mates.... I think without S in the same sch as me and take train with me everyday this 6 months would not have been possible... The large jump from sec sch to jc... I couldn't accustom to it at the start... ok lah.. no need say it explicitly lah... We know it will do... 不用谢来谢去~ even now right... Sec sch friends in same jc also give me weird feelings... People that you never talked to in the past starts saying hi to you. Ur JC friend knows almost all your sec sch school mates Some people the more you see, the more awkward it will become.. Some people the more you see the more you find that you don't really know that person well... Argh... Whatever.... Some of my random thoughts... I'm glad that i really got a nice PW group. Although my group proposal not like : Wahh super fantastic.. But i think they are really nice people... Not that self-centered? More Chin chye(in a good way) cooperative and easy-going they give constructive ideas along the way... Sometimes i don't think i'm the leader.. I'm just facilitating the discussion process and send some sms reminders along the way... No free-loader in my group, no one man show... 我想这是我最大的安慰吧? I kinda have this principle that when i'm studying, i don't let unrelated thoughts enter my head... Sometimes i end up stoning and thinking about some stuff but other times i'm really concentrated. Kinda got abit slacker this term.. Shall pick up my pace gradually... The peer-tutoring thing.. Being a peer tutor i was kinda not surprised... Not boasting about my results.. but nothing to boast about anyway... In fact i was rather disappointed with my maths results for MYCT although i say my aim for MYCT was all pass this time and i really mean it.. but after i finished my maths paper.. I was hoping for an A i didn't tell anyone about it lah... At the end i really didn't get anyway... Monday 2 more papers and tuesday last one.... just hope to to get this MYCT things over.. I think this term would be total hell EoM, GPP,WR, Common test, New chapters,CCA and what nots.. But i'm still rather postive especially with so many encouraging people around... I know when i tell my mum about my results and she say: huh, 那么差啊? but she really thinks i did my best already... In fact, i'm really like the princess at home during exam period... I need complete silence. My family knows that, so sometimes when i kinda rudely shh.. them they will understand, my mum will ask my dad to lower his volume... Also cause my tuition teacher same frequency as me that's why my tuition is not boring that kind.... Cause i received so much help from others.. I'm now giving back.. Peer tutoring and helping out for night study... I said that i will not be teacher in the future. Let this be my experience in life bah... As much as JC life is very demanding... but i still hope that i can find some joy out of the 2 years. 2 years past quickly.. I know... Shall end here.. Why my posts suddenly become so emo.. actually i have alot of photos.. but i guess i won't be posting.... go other people fb and check it out bah.. ByeBye Clarissa欣 Time check: 10.46PM |
Clarissa★ 
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